I feel as though I have fallen in a deep hole. There is no light, no help, and no happiness. My struggles become more frequent. I really don't know who I am, what I'm  meant to do, or how I should show myself to the world. I'm lost, and I don't know how to be found.

I don't feel like being that person I have been. I find that she has only hindered me from being all that I could be, hindered me from being who I wish I could be. I've come to the point in which I truly despise my personality. I want so desperately to change, to undoubtedly, permanately change.

I am hurting. I long to be happy again, but I just don't see it. The words that you have been spoken to me will never go away. They stay in my heart like a disease. I looked up to you in the most admirable way, I loved you more than life itself. People can only disappoint you in this life. Trust is a word I will soon forget, who can you trust?

Dear God, I am hurt and confused. I don't know who I should be, and I struggle more than I succeed. It's easy to give up and do it my own way, but Lord, I pray that I would be strong and firm in my faith. I know you'll never leave me alone, I know you will guide my footsteps. I have confidence that you will do what's best for me. Help me to always know that.